My answer is best summed up by the Edmond
Burke quotation, "The only thing necessary for the
triumph of evil is for good people to do nothing."
I teach people that if they have something
to say, it shouldn't be just a desire but a human duty
and responsibility to help others. If we can change the
text books, if we can teach the children of Iran and the
Middle East that hate is not inherited; it is taught.
If they can understand that children everywhere are innocent
and if they can learn, as I often say, that "Governments
do and People pay", we will save generations of our
human family from the hard core fundamentalists who are
turning them into human bombs.
Yes it is true that I escaped from all
the animosity in Iran. I lived a fairly peaceful life
in Canada but this changed when I published my book, Living
in Hell. On a tour in California, an Iranian taught me
a lesson while I was being interviewed on the radio. I
will never forget: He called from Iran and said Dear Ms.
Omid, you have a good life. You are a published author.
So, what about us? What have you done for your country?
What have you done for the Iranian children, for the next
generation?
It hit me hard. He was right. It is my
time to serve because the honest truth is when I was a
child, I dreamed of having someone to stand up for me.
That hero never came to rescue me. I learned early on
to scratch my own back. Now, I am in a position to do
something for the children, for the next generation and
perhaps, hopefully, for the current one. I don't see it
as my work or obligation, I see it as my responsibility,
as a member of the human family, to serve; however small
that might be.
I was born in 1970 in Abadan, Iran, minutes
from the Iraqi border. I am the youngest of eleven siblings,
from my father's second wife. I am the youngest of four
children my mother bore my polygamist father. I grew up
both rich and poor at the same time. My father neglected
both of his families, abandoning us to hide in the US
to avoid the danger of the Iranian revolution.
During the revolution when we didn't
have any schooling, my mother, at my request, purchased
me a small Bible.
My interest in reading holy books started
with reading the Koran and extended to other holy books
at very young age. On one hand, my mother's stories from
her non-Muslim friends influenced me to want to know more
about other religions. On the other hand, I always relied
on my own experiences and didn't accept answers without
logical explanations.
As an Iranian female, I was brought up
not to question but to obey. However, my mother and later
the government of Iran found it impossible to turn me
into just a follower.
After the revolutionary Islamic government
came to power, the school texts taught us that Muslims
were good and will go to Heaven, while all others won't
be saved and will go to Hell. That wasn't a good enough
explanation for me. After reading Koran and doing the
Arabic prayers starting at age 7, I did not agree with
the explanation I was given because I knew God has not
called the people of the book the infidels. This phrase
was taken out of context and used over an over by the
government of Iran to teach the Iranian children, "We,
the Muslims are good and the rest of the world, the Non-Muslims,
are evil. And therefore, Good and Evil will fight and
Good will eventually win through human sacrifices."
I was an inquisitive child. I loved history,
philosophy, culture and I liked to read. Instead of playing
with dolls and toys, I was reading the news as my mother
helped me to understand Iran's past and present.
But my childhood dream was to become
a doctor! However that dream died when I entered the political
arena against the government of Iran at age 14.
Like many children of today's Middle
East I grew up in the war zone. At night we heard shootings,
yelling and screaming from the streets and alleys. Bullets
flew over our yard and some landed in our garden.
At a young age, I had a bad feeling about
the future of our country. I predicted that we were going
to pay a heavy price for our naivety.
During the revolution crimes were the
norm, after the revolution; brain washings were part of
the regime's instructional mandates. Books which were
part of our culture for centuries were burned to ashes.
Book burnings were the usual event at the universities.
For almost two years the doors of universities remained
closed while the Revolutionary Guard, better known as
"the Iron Guard", cleaned up everything they
thought was Ungodly or Anti- Regime. The clean up included,
art, history, philosophy, poetry... and even people.
During the years I lived in Iran, I saw
plenty of devastation toward humanity, in particular toward
the children. In my teen years and youth while living
in Iran, children were brain washed into believing that
Westerners were evil; and that everyone else in the world
who didn't agree with Khomeini, including moderate Muslims.
were also evil.
During the war, children were told that
if they get a Key to Haven from a Mullah, they will receive
his blessing and will go directly to Heaven when they
across the mine fields.
I was asked on more than a dozen occasions
to sign up for Bessigi or the revolutionary militia. I
refused. I was asked to join the army behind the war zone
and help as a Zainab Sister, as the regime called it.
I refused and made more comments about the mullahs' that
they didn't quite like. The Zainab sisters did everything
from cleaning up the injured Iranian soldiers brought
to the hospitals in the so called "safe zone"
to becoming their temporary wives and even wrapping a
bomb to their chest and going after whoever the Iranian
regime called the Enemy. The Zainab Sisters program still
exists and since Ahmdinejad has come to power as the President,
it is again being promoted, this time against the West.
During the years I was studying in Iran,
we were lined up at 7 A. M, every morning, rain or shine,
before attending our classes at 8 A. M to yell, "Death
to America, Death To Israel, Death To United Kingdom,
Death to France and Death to Germany.
I know most people who haven't seen any
shouting against Europeans have a hard time believing
this is true. Especially because for the past decade,
Europe has had an OK relationship with the Iranian regime.
The truth of the matter is: The Iranian
regime will never change. The regime's watchdogs teach
hate against you and all of the Western world in their
schools.
As children we were ordered to yell every
day but when the camera's were rolling we were told to
not yell Death to the European countries publicly! I REMEMBER
VIVIDLY, MY FRIENDS, BEING HUSHED IN FRONT OF THE CAMERAS.
The government of Iran considers all the West their enemies.
They simply select whom to hate more on public television!
Back in Iran, when I made it to high
school at age 14, through reading more books on Islam,
I realized that what the Government of Iran does to the
mind of children is an unspeakable crime and certainly
a great sin. At that age, I didn't know how to stop this
crime. I went for more than a year trying not to show
up for the morning prayers which always contained the
anti-western slogans.
After a year of playing with the minds
of the regime's watchdogs in the high school, the principal
who was watching me in the school yard, finally found
me in one of the classes. She forced me to go to the morning
prayers and stood in the line up next to me. I stood up
there but wouldn't shout. Then she stood right in my face.
I moved my mouth up and down but no voice was coming out.
She screamed , "Why aren't you yelling?" I said:
"I have a sore tooth."
She said. "Apparently, you have
had sore tooth for the past year." The angry principal
who had no shame confessing that she was the Government
watchdog added: "You don't think that we know what
you are doing, we are watching you…."
I said, "OK, do you want me to tell
you the truth?" She said, "What is that?"
I said, "I can't hate someone I don't even know.
I can't hate the westerns because you don't like them."
She said, "You will pay a price for your attitude."
I gave her my version of advice in Farsi, which in translation
is: "When someone is drowning and submerged by water
they couldn't care less how deep they have sunk."
I knew I would find myself in trouble but I wanted to
let her know that I am not brain washed.
She was true to her word. I paid a heavy
price for a very small phrase coming out of a teenager's
mouth. But, their reaction made me realize that the government
of Iran is much weaker than many think. We just have to
know how to press them in the right spot.
I didn't know that answering back to
the government was such a horrific crime, until later
when I finally made it to a Private university and had
begun to discover the extent of my youthful folly.
The Iranian regime doesn't have much
to fear from the opposition. But they do fear those who
are informed about the message of the Koran; and can translate
and comprehend its deeper message, and who also have enough
courage to teach and encourage others not to listen to
the madness the government of Iran preaches.
Among the many arguments I had with the
government concerned the issue of forcing children to
publicly pray, so they could be photographed for propaganda
purposes. Even though I pray five times a day, I didn't
want to be manipulated by the government. I argued with
the watchdogs over the verses of Koran which state that
women shouldn't pray publicly nor should anyone be forced
to pray...
The theory of the Iranian regime is:
When anyone is opposed to the government, that person
must be pulled out of the crowed and isolated and, most
often, taken to prison so others wouldn't follow--this
was done on numerous occasion under Khatami's regime;
the most liberal president the Westerners thought Iran
had.
The only reason they couldn't do that
to me was because I was well informed; both about the
Islamic laws and because my mother worked with a Lawyer
for many years. I knew enough about my rights that they
couldn't find my weak spot to make me quiet. And, of course,
it didn't help them that I had a very big mouth, was very
persistent and my mother was an extremely religious woman.
But, having said that, there was always
a chance of being kidnapped by the Iranian regime's Intelligence
services, which was exactly what happened to me a little
later.
At other times during the war when Iraqi
planes were dropping bombs on us and the government watchdogs
were telling the children to just pray and if they died
they will end up in Heaven. I asked them, "What if
they didn't die in their cause and what if they are injured,
who will be responsible for their lives? Why should we
follow you to the Depths of Hell when you are not even
sure about your own afterlife?"
I despised the Iranian regime even more
when the child soldiers were taken off the streets without
their parents permission or consent and, after a short
while, a letter, along with a key drowned in their child's
blood was delivered to their families. The children, who
were recruited directly from schools with the help of
the Iranian regime's employees, were sent to the borders,
fed for two weeks and supposedly given military training.
The truth of matter was: Most of these children were coming
out of extremely poor families. The children were not
in military camps, but were brain washed by excessive
prayers that government of Iran used to persuade them
to walk into the mine fields to clear a path for the soldiers
to follow.
Every child soldier was given a key.
They were told that if they step on the mines, they will
end up in heaven in the arms of 72 virgins.
After Graduating from high school following
the end of the Iran-Iraq war, I set my ambitions on a
place at medical school. However, despite high scores
on my entrance exams, I was denied enrollment in medical
school or any public university because of my record of
non-conformity to arbitrary non-Islamic dictates by the
regime. Little did I realize that to get a passing grade
you had to be approved by the Intelligence services who
monitored all students wishing to go to university. Despite
financial difficulties, I enrolled in a private university,
studying French Literature to prepare for a law degree.
At university, my low-key defiance in speaking to other
students about the indefensible dictates of the government
mullahs caused me to be continually watched and harassed
by faculty spies in retribution for daring to quietly
defy petty rules.
In October 1990, I was abducted from
the street by the secret police. When I realized what
was happening, I escaped by jumping from the kidnapper's
speeding car into a busy street. I was seriously injured
but was rescued, temporarily, by the crowd. Although I
was the victim, I was rearrested on trumped up charges,
which typically resulted in a rapid death sentence, taken
to prison and released only by agreeing to non-disclosure
and signing away my rights to pursue the case.
This was just the beginning of three
long years of fighting with the government of Iran on
a daily basis. The second major incident happened in my
third year of university after receiving threatening mail
and phone calls from the Iranian Intelligence services.
I was threatened for taking innocent pictures of university
classmates. I was publicly condemned as the "American
Patriot" in national Friday prayers by Iran's leader,
the self-titled Ayatollah Khamani.
When I was 24, I was required to return
to my birthplace, the city of Abadan, to renew my birth
certificate. During a tour of the city, I attempted to
photograph, from a distance, the rusty hulk of what had
once been one of the world's largest refinery. My grandfather
had worked in that refinery during its good old days.
I asked the cab driver to slow down. Instead, he sped
up, produced his Pasdar, Secret Police, identification
and threatened to arrest me as a spy.
Realizing the government had marked me; I escaped out
of Iran and made it to Canada.
But I am here because I was a witness
to atrocities of the government of Iran. During the war,
I, along with millions of other kids was a victim of brainwashing;
forced to yell against anyone the regime dictated. Some
could not resist the propaganda. I did not become a suicide
bomber. Instead I turned my anger against the Iranian
regime. Once again, I want to return the favor and I will
teach other kids to do just that.